One thing I have in London

The one thing I have in London is friendships. That's what I survive on. I've learnt not to put hopes in people but to just let things flow and let people and nature surprise me, that way, I cut down on disappointments that I may receive.

Many times when I'm disappointed, I tend to sit aside alone and reflect upon the pretty things in life, and then I start to cry. Many times wondering how could people disappoint me when I thought I always set low expectations. Why say yes when you don't really mean it and then break my heart?

All I survive on is friendships, nothing else can break my heart more than a friendship at this point in my life. If I go the distance for some friends, I won't admit it because of my proudness. I'll say I did it as a 'by the way' action. Cause I figured you should know how much you mean to me in my life.

But when people agree to something I asked spontaneously without me having to convince them or ask them twice and then not living up to their words, what do I say? is it pure courtesy that people need to say yes to everything though they don't feel like it?

Sometimes, some so called friendships need to be called off. Just so you can prevent going through disappointments, wondering on the side why would people do something like that to you. After all, when friendships is what you survive on, it needs to be good or be nothing at all.

Ange.

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